you made me realise:
1. whatever I say, is bullshit.
2. whatever I need or want you to do for me, you do for others only.

ha. the irony of it all.

Humans are hard nuts to crack.
When everything goes well in life,
very seldom, people think about properly cherishing someone, or even showing their appreciation of having someone in their life.
More often than not, people say they are too preoccupied with other things in life, thus they forget to do so.
How sad, right?
:'(

So, people, remember to show your love for the people who have been standing by you and caring for you.
Tell them that you cherish them. :)

i wish i wasn't feeling insecure :(

I hate this feeling.
This feeling sucks.
Why do I even have this feeling?
rawr.
I don't want to feel this way.
SHOO!

:(

:(
Life goes on, I guess.
The good thing that has ever been happening for me recently is that my faith has been growing stronger.
:)

Cooked dinner just now.
Accidentally landed a deep cut on my finger.
Painful. but not as painful as the hurt I received from your words.
I guess I need a long time to recover this time.

Lesson Learnt today : I possess all the flaws that I'd hated myself to have.
GREAT. sigh.
:'(

today's a FUN day.
Me and BF went to watch Monsters vs Aliens.
it's a great show!!
we ran into his gd fren and his gf in the cinema!
Such a coincidence.
wahaha.
then we went shopping w them.
Helped to choose a gorgeous diamond ring.
and of course, it was the more expensive one la.
My taste never fails me.
(not that I'm THAT materialistic; but somehow, the prettier things that appeal to me, tend to cost more :p)

after which, we went to eat KU GUA TANG (OUR FAVOURITE!!!!!!!!! ^^)
it's so yum yum, can!
I wanna go again soon, JEREMY! :D
then went work.
after work, we ate yumyum green tea icecream again (OUR OBSESSION! :D)
then we went home rested awhile.
then BOYFRIEND gave me my second lesson of driving.
I know he was trying his best not to lose his patience with me.
ha!
but I know how to turn round and round and ROUND ler!! :)
yay!
but I'm a potential road HOGGER.
:P
but yups, I had fun.
then went home watch teevee, ate instant spag.
the BF taught me the basics of piano; cause I really wanna learn properly :))
MR JEREMY LIM is a great teacher :))
and I love him lots! ^^

okay. tml's my first lesson w my instructor.
hope I'll do ok.
gg sleep.
nights :D

I'm feeling like shit right now.
rawr!
really need to scream it all out.
:((
now, I know why I was having the weird moody feelings.

:0)

yesterday was a well-spent day :)
Went watch Terminator Salvation and Night @ the Museum 2 with Jer.
Both shows are simply fabulous :))
After which, we went to Seasons for some food.
Had nice fat potato wedges (Jer's Fav), yummielicious Cream of Mushroom (Our Fav), nicenice hawaiian pizza :)
and of course, nice swensens' icecream :))
then we went home to go through some cds.
Kind of relive our childhoods :))
so nice!
then went for crabs for dinner before going home.
:))

Life with you can be so simple, yet makes me so happy :))

Turning 21 :)

Yups. Am turning 21 in less than half an hour's time :)
but I think I've already gotten all my blessings and celebrations done beforehand lers :)
thanks to fellow PRFs; namely ...
Florence Siew
Quek Peiling
Soo Suxian
Yvonne Peh
Eileen Tay
Cheng Liyi
For the really sweet celebration.
and you girls ah,
the video nearly made me cry.
( I had to hold back my tears.)
thank you girls for the KTV treat, and the stars balloons!!
I simply love it.
I know I wasn't the most enthu birthday girl yesterday.
thanks for bearing with me, fellow PRFs.
and thank you to ah bon, liyi and clement for the pwetty wallet :)
thank you all for sticking by me all these while and for your concern, girls :)
oh! thank you to EUGENE toh who cldn't make it.
I know you care too :)
get well soon ya?
and thanks to ANU!
for trying to keep me company with the nuts game and for trying ur best to make the atmosphere as hype as possible :)
thank you people :))
really. thank you.

and of course,
I must thank the person who took pains to convince me that I'm nuts not wanting to celebrate my 21st birthday.
and whom happens to be my most beloved boyfriend, Jeremy Lim Chuan Ghai.
thank you for the gorgeous necklace :)
thank you for the 21 lovely red roses.
thank you for making a surprise appearance.
thank you for volunteering to be my voice when I lost it :)
thank you especially for standing by me and supporting me in all that I do and making sure that I'm happy :)
thank you, dear.

and so, yups. thank you everyone for making it possible :)
I cldn't have been happier.
I love you all! :))

and, I thank God for putting all of you in my life.
I really feel more than blessed :)
thanks.

I'll be away for the weekend. :)
hopefully everything goes well.

It's not difficult at all; just try harder...

it's OVER :))

it's finally over!
it's been way too long a period that I've been eating and studying at MACS almost every single day.
SO FATTENING can!
haha.
though I'm feeling kind of lousy for my paper today,
but I am glad that it is over :))

Boyfriend, thank you for making the effort to come over and celebrate the end of my exams with me.
thanks for cheering me up and believing in me :))
I LOVE YOU!! ^^

WHEE!! ^^

I CONQUERED THE M.A.B MONSTER today!!
never felt so happy in a long long time :))
ONE LAST ONE TO GO! :))

what to do?
Life just moves on, right?

oh wells.
you really didn't remember at all.

hmt paper is in one more day.
didn't do well for my individual project.
I need a miracle to help me through it.
No more breakdowns.
I'm sick of it already.
Am going to study somemore.
to quote my avid reader-unifren:
"Even though we may have lost the battle, we are going to win the WAR."
hopes tomorrow will be a better day.

happy 40th months

happy 40th monthsery. but you don't remember.

I MISS MY BF NA.

I miss my dearest boyfriend.
but I doubt that he knows.
maybe he knows; but not the extent of it.
I miss him when I am studying for my papers;
thinking if he's also rushing out his urgently-pending assignments.
I miss him when I am having my meals.
thinking if he remembered to eat in the midst of his busy schedule.
I miss him, simply all the time.
BOYFRIEND, I need a hug badly :'(

random tots.

just some random thoughts...

1. Exams are SO near.
yucks. hope it will be over soon.

2. Life sucks at the moment.
but I do try to find some happiness from this dark moment of my life.
thank you to my most beloved boyfriend and my dearest friends for your support :)

3. and ya, I'm turning twenty-one in a month's time.
thanks to those who have asked about how I wana celebrate.
and no, I really don't feel like celebrating it.
I just wana get out of this dark moment.

4. feeling mentally and emotionally tired.
must cheer up soon.
jiayou limjiaxin.

I need a miracle.

I think I need a miracle badly.
a BIG one is needed badly.

I have to make a big decision.
One choice made, would require a great deal of sacrifice.
Or I could choose the easier way out.
and be the self-centered and selfish me.
I wish there was an option C.
perhaps, that option C is a miracle bahs.
Guess, I'll go pray about it.

Lord, if things can't be easier, make me stronger.

:))

AHHHHHHH. finally home sweet home after a long long day! :((

Two things that didn't make my day :

1. Been approached by the G.H.O.S.T.
she was like practically haunting me!
made me so paranoid!!
she approached me and tried to pinch me with an evil look on her face can!
I'm NOT exaggerating!
ask ronald. he witnessed it ALL. >.<
horrible shit.

2. Bad Strain of my shoulder.
I'm practically feeling like a handicapped lo.
any movement give rise to pain.
even breathing in deep.
Goodness.

Things that made my day :DD

1. it's my LAST day of SCHOOL! :DD *blinkblink*
2. Milo treat from Ronald who claims that it's for not seeing each other regularly enough >.<
3. I got to sit and chat with my favourite people in class!! :))
4. My sweet friends who helped me print my notes so that I can start on my revision :D

Wells. Though things aren't going great for me at the moment,
but I really pray and hope that they will turn out for the better.
'Cause I really feel tired :(

IT'S overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr :DD

it's finally OVER!!
Gosh. it was hell.
But I thank God for putting people like my most beloved BOYFRIEND, eileen and emily in my life!
They really helped me through this hell of a time.
Boyfriend had to stay up late for two consecutive days to keep me company despite having to go school really early on the next.
AND! eileen and emily stayed up with me to help and teach me stuffs even though they could well be spending time sleeping.
SO sweet right?
I was totally touched :'(

a big thank you to boyfriend who sacrificed his sleep and for his patience with me.
a big thank you to eileen who stayed up late and went without lunch all because of me.
a big thank you to emily who stayed up late too and stayed back in school to guide me in my work
and a big thank you to eileen again for her "SHOPAHOLIC for the SHOPAHOLIC" email. which really made me smile :))
and of course, the biggest thankyou goes to God,
who put these nice people in my life to help me through such a tough time.
I wouldn't be able to do everything if not for Him.
:))

>.<

sometimes, I find that life is kind of unfair.
but, whose is fair?
and things tend to happen at the most important time of your life when you're supposed to be happy.
good timing sense uh?

I'm just monologue-ing here.
'Cause I'm dreading things and I'm definitely dreading going for my mktg meeting.
RAWRR!! :'((

:(

am sick.
still sick.
Need sleep.
Lots of it.
Need love.
Need tonnes of it.
:'(

HMT finally done!

HMT FINALLY DONE!
gosh. I feel like I'm dying now.
woohoo!
LET ME PASS PLEASE!! >.<

braindead

I'm SO sleepy.
didn't have a goodnite sleep.
and I haven't finish my HMT.
and so, I'm at home still, instead of rushing for MAB class.
I want to finish and sleep!!
but still, I have tuition this afternoon.
HOW AM I EVER GG TO SURVIVE IT ALL?
rawrrrrrrrrr!
God, I pray that everything will be just fine.
Amen.

Lord, I pray for more strength to get me through this. Amen.

another hectic day

today's actually quite a slack-ish day.
for one thing, I have no lessons today.
for the other, I didn't have any plans to fulfill.

and so, I spent my whole morning and afternoon doing more research for my HMT essay.
rawr! and I ended up with so many readings to complete.
sian.
but actually I found it quite interesting to read.
Spent abt two hours at Macs doing my readings.
:))

Some reminders to myself after some lessons learnt recently.

1. Must learn to believe in and not doubt my abilities.
2. Must learn to stop being paranoid about matters.
3. Must learn to trust people; but not blindly.
4. Must stop procrastinating about work that must be completed no matter what.
5. Must make time for ME-time! :))

:)) ahh.. that's about it :))

Random thoughts

Some random thoughts.
Rainy days evoke emotions :)

1. Am happy that I've lots of me-time today.
really caught up on my sleep and rest.
but still, I'm feeling sleepy.
God knows how much sleep I have been missing out on man :/
gee..

2. HMT deadline coming lers.
and am still kind of struggling with first draft.
man. limjiaxin stop procrastinating and get your work done! >.<

3. I miss going to singsong.
BEEN SO LONG since I last stepped into a KTV and sing my heart out.
sianned.
damn sian.
I NEED AN OUTLET BADLY!! :(

4. Am feeling overwhelmed by my workload that I don't wana care about anything else anymore.
am gg to dedicate this week and next week and the next next week to school work and my tuitions fully.
jiayou lim jia xin! :)

Am gg to do my MAB homework and revision before SLEEPING.
hehs. all the best to myself.
OH! just now was reading a chinese novel which I've been wanting to read since a long time ago.
there was this damn emotional part where it says . . .
思念是用脑子想，相处是用眼睛看，可以思念的爱情总是比较美的。
因为脑子容易美化，眼睛却只能笨拙的反应现实。
so emo right!! :/
but sometimes, it can be true :S

I'm so glad that we talked.
I love you . . .

:))

just wana say HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY TO QUEKPEILING aka my GORGEOUS HELLMATE :))

thank you for inviting us to your 21st birthday party.
it has been a memorable day for all of us :)
:))
Stay pwetty and crazy always ^^

overwhelmed.

today was supposed to be a fantastic day.
it's me and Jer's 38th monthsery!
*happy 3 years and 2 months, JER! :)*
was supposed to attend Clement's birthday party together.
Like finally, get to attend an event as a couple; rather than alone by myself.
but ended up, at the last minute had to cancel :(
*sorry eugene!*

am still overwhelmed by everything.
by myself, by everything right now.
Don't understand why things happen in such ways.
Don't understand why people turn out different from what they seem.
Don't understand why love couldn't just stay simple.
Don't understand why some people thinks so lightly of promises made.

situations around me happened in such a way that made me ponder quite alot.
promises aren't made to be broken.
else, you hurt the people who love you.
enough said.

aside from feeling sad,
good things did happen today.
had a great japanese treat @ ICHIBAN from my boyfriend :))
and we got to watch "HE's just not that into You"
it's a totally fabulous show :))
thank you boyfriend :)

:S

Am in school right now.
waiting for my turn at the printer.
such a long queue.
There should be a better system.
Hmm.. Maybe can implement Scientific Management in some ways.
HEE. Must be studying too much.
:)
but I'm gonna have to wait for SO LONG for my turn.
judging from the bulk that the people are printing.
SO SAD!!

And I'm so bored.
nothing to do.
nowhere to go.
BORED.
and I miss my boyfriend badly.
Our schedules just like clashing together.
NO TIME TO MEET UP!
oh man.
I'm feeling sad right now.
I wish I can have more time for myself :'(
sighhh...

:)

Thank God that the hectic period just went and passed temporarily :)

Below are things that happened this week and that I feel like sharing/whining about :))

1. today, I was quite pissed off w my mktg grp member.
I don't like "worriers"; they made me urmmm.. duno what word to use to describe.
anyways, I tried my best to control myself;
so that I won't talk in an intimidating way which I usually do when I want to get my way.
It took me lots of patience to be nice and listen patiently then explain patiently as well.
Gosh. FIVE MORE WEEKS TO GO! :(

2. Was quite relieved that HMT grp proj is done and over with.
Went CELEBRATE w eileen.
:))
but now have to worry about HMT individual.
will start on it SOON.
SOON, I promise. HEHS.

3. I THANK GOD that I don't have money on me today.
else I would have splurge it all.
SAW SO MANY NICE BAGS!
there's this soft leather bag from charles n keith; it's damn nice and EX.
and MY FAV HEELS are on SALEEEEEEEEEEE.
mans. it's a good thing that I don't own credit cards.
I'll be totally hopeless.
hehs. AM doing my best to control :))

4. PAYDAY is coming SOON.
wahahaha. okayy. Will promise to save up most of it.
but I'll be spending some!
SO THAT I CAN FINALLY LEARN DRIVING!
whee....
:DD

5. I miss my boyfriend SO MUCH.
but I'll be seeing him TML!
whee.
we have decided to go running every friday morning at 7am.
WHEE .
SO EXCITED.
man. I shld go to sleep soon.
I so need my energy.

okayy. Logging off soon.
have a great weekend everyone :))

hectic and sad week.

this week hasn't come to an end yet.
but I already feel overwhelmed by it.
it's been a hectic and sad week.
alot of upsetting events, irritating events, etcetc.
I'm emotionally drained for now :'(

valentine's day or not.

yes. Valentine's Day just passed.
HAHA.
but me and boyfriend decided not to celebrate it like usual.
and so, it became another even more "memorable" day just like last year on the same date as well.
ah wells. Thank God it ended on a happy note :))

We had dinner w his family first.
pretty rushed, in my opinion.
and his daddy foot the bill even though we were supposed to be the ones treating.
my boyfriend was made to wear couple tee with me!
he looked so cute in it!
WHEE :)
after which poor boyfriend was dragged off w me to shop for shoes and teeshirts.
HA! don't get me wrong.
We were buying HIS. not mine.
HEE :))
then we went to line up for neoprints.
THREE YEARS nv take lers!! :S
I so love the neoprint!! :))
oh wells. it's just another day to remember.

I love you no matter what happens.

I AM SO PROUD OF MY BOYFRIEND! :))

This post is specially dedicated to the MAN of my life :)

YES! he's noneotherthan my most beloved BOYFRIEND! ^^
Boyfriend! I know I haven't really told you how proud I am of you :)
and so, here it is.
JEREMYLIMCHUANGHAI! I'm really very proud of you for your determination!
YOU DID IT!
I can't tell you how happy I am.
'Cause it's a hard-to-describe type of feeling.
From the 4th of FEB, JEREMYLIMCHUANGHAI-MYBELOVED, has been promoted from being my GUY, to being the MAN OF MY LIFE!! :))
whee...

I NEED A LIFE!

I NEED A LIFE!! :(

Routines are tiring.
Wednesdays are my boyfriend days!
but today was a hectic day used for project meetings.
Had two project meetings today straight after my morning class.
Super tired can.
and my bag is super heavy.
;(
I need a chauffeur w his own car!!
hahaha.

Some randomness of limjiaxin

1. I don't want to become fat!
urms. I ain't bulimic or anorexic!
but I want to stay in a healthy size!!
been seeing alot of people gg out of shape.
no offence.
but I would hate to be like that.
I'll be damn depressed.
but I just don't want history to repeat itself.
(Don't worry. I won't be starving myself; just going to exercise more. ANYWAYS, I can never force myself to hate food! :D)

2. I feel that I want to go for an overseas short term studies.
As in, for the fun of it.
See how bahs. If I'm able to support myself, that is.
HA! :))

3. Turning twenty-one this year.
but I don't feel the excitement as much as my friends do.
perhaps, to me it's just another birthday.
No big celebrations for me please; I just want a peaceful and happy year ahead with no hiccups :)
that's all I want.

4. tuition is totally stressful.
my new students are really challenging.
My schedule is really very tiring.
:((
I've no more me-time.
I need a LIFE! :(

Going to do my HMT project lers.
WHEE!
I need chocolates right now! :'(

QUOTE OF THE DAY : Behind a Successful Woman, is a cat and a fridge full of CHOCOLATES!

:((

All my bags are packed I'm ready to go
I'm standin' here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breakin' it's early morn
The taxi's waitin' he's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh baby, I hate to go

There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I tell you now, they don't mean a thing
Every place I go, I'll think of you
Every song I sing, I'll sing for you
When I come back, I'll bring your wedding ring

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time let me kiss you
Close your eyes I'll be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the times, I won't have to say

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh baby, I hate to go

Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

I'm leaving, though not on a jet plane.
but I really hate to go :(
Feel like crying again :'(

PENNIES FOR THOUGHTS

Life has been pretty well and fine for me.
Am coping well with school.
Things on my schedule are gradually falling into place;
So I don't have to worry about coping at all! :)
wellwells. Been thinking for quite abit.

PENNIES FOR MY THOUGHTS!

1. First to start off; I've very CHI2 DUN4(slow reacting) muscles.
I was having so much fun and joy in carrying my boyfriend's little nephew.
it was only after many hours of carrying then putting him down.
then the pain strikes me gradually.
my arms cramped for the WHOLE night.
mans. Must try my best to remember not to overindulge in my enjoyment with kids from now on.

2. We have to make many choices and decisions in life.
sometimes, when it comes to things I really dislike.
and when it comes to a point that I feel I've been tolerating for too long,
or when disappointments get too great,
I usually give people only two options.
"Take it or Leave it"
it's just as simple as that.
some things can never coincide with me in the same era, or however you phrase it.

3. It takes two hands to clap.
and many claps to get an applause.
sometimes, I can get really demanding, I know.
but since dunno when, I've always strongly believed that if you want something badly enough,
you will be able to clear all obstacles and make all sacrifices to get it.
I used to be someone who will turn to popping panadols into my mouth whenever I feel a slight headache/gastric pain.
and I grew to be really dependent on those for pain relief whenever migraine hits me in the past.
this sort of dependency should be considered an addiction of some sort bahs.
and I've managed to overcome it perfectly.
it wasn't easy.
Imagine the sort of pain you get from migraine, and having to force yourself not to pop those pills into your mouth.
yes, temptations are there.
They are, always there and everywhere;
Quiting an addiction of any sort, isn't easy; never easy at all.
but with the considerable amount of effort one puts in,
one should think about how his/her effort will go back to square one, before giving in to temptations.
In order to quit any form of addiction, the very first step is to stop finding excuses for yourself to do it again.
Think for yourself, and for the people who care enough to want to see you quit.

4. CNY is just round the corner.
what sort of meaning does CNY holds for you?
since young, I always think it as a festive for reunion.
'Cause my dad's side of relatives all live so faraway from us.
but as years go by, and people grow older and have their own life.
I realised that lesser of my cousins do actually return for the reunion.
and even if they do, there isn't much interaction anymore.
HOW SAD CAN! :(
somehow, CNY has begun to lose its appeal to the younger generations, except perhaps, for the fact that they are able to get hongbaos.

okayy. I've babbled enough nonsense lers.
Life goes on, even when something is lost in its own transit and the earth won't stop spinning for you.
Stay strong and move on.
You'll always see the light at the end of tunnel :))

:))))

it's thursday already.
I know I haven't been blogging for a week lers.
Been really busy with my projects.
as well as spending my limited free time with boyfriend who has limited time for me too.
Tuition is going to resume for me.
Am kind of looking forward to it.
'Cause I really need the income.
:((
RAWR!!
new school term has been really great with my unifriends.
not quite with the new ones though.
sighh.

MAB class later.
yay! I'm going to be alone!
sometimes, I rather be alone than be around people who so like comparing results O.o!
rawrr! show-off! >.<

Finally watched FOUR CHRISTMASES!!:))

SCHOOL WAS GREAT today.
but alittle exhausting still.
:))
I love meals with people, mingling around and talking to them about things.
oh ya. today I was making fun of someone and my chinese screwed up!!
SO EMBARRASSING!! :(
must brush up on my chinese lers :)

After school, I came home to finish my chores.
Then I went to find JER.
Finally watched FOUR CHRISTMASES!!
it's super NICE!! :))
I SO SO SO LOVE IT.

I kind of dread tml.
but I know I shouldn't be feeling this way.
I hope my new classmates are nice people.
and they must be friendly!!
haha.
okay. Must get to sleep soon.
it's a LONG DAY tml.
limjiaxin JIAYOU!! :)

DAY TWO OF SCHOOL.

it's only DAY TWO of school.
okay. it just felt as though I've started school for ages.
Nahs. I ain't sick of it yet.
Will try my best not to be.
It's just the morning lessons that are totally killing me.
THE MORNING CROWDS, THE MORNING BLUES >.<
and for the whole of the rest of this week, I have morning lessons at 8.30am!!
rawrrrrrr! why the torture!! :(
okay. end of whinings.
:DDD

Was doing my daily bible reading; came across this verse.
Which is really important and relevant to me.
Matthew 6:34 - "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble."

Feeling sleepy already.
*yawns* it's only TEN o'clock for goodness sake! :'(

LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT :))

SCHOOL WAS TOTALLY FABULOUS TODAY!
it was LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT for me.
Don't get me wrong.
I didn't fall in love with any guy, nor is it my lecturer.
I FELL IN LOVE WITH MY NEW SUBJECT!
"HISTORY OF MANAGEMENT THOUGHT"! *my new love*
*prays hard that the passion will LAST* :DD

must get more sleep.
I think I've been seriously lacking in SLEEP!
*baa baa black SLEEP*
:P

EMO POST.

I can't tell you how much I'm looking forward to SCHOOL-reopening.

Seriously, staying at home too much, makes me lose my sanity.
so, just let me have an outlet to release some of those unhealthy feelings;
I hate to keep them inside.
sometimes some person who lives in the same house as I do,
says the most demoralising, most insulting, most humiliating things to you.
sometimes, some person makes you feel so unwelcomed that it seems like things will be oh so merry if you move out.
but at the same time, some person restricts you so much like a caged animal with NO freedom at all.
sometimes, you feel like screaming back at some person just so to tell some person that he might not be all that RIGHT after all.
sometimes, you would wonder if that some person ever reflects on himself.
I really wonder, you know.

but afterall, I do not need to get angry over such a person.
I do not need to prove myself to anyone.
I do not need.
one day, I'll get my freedom.

Know the theory about kite-flying?
I like thinking of relationships using the theory of kite-flying.
Kite-flying is a skill; not all that easy to master.
just like the handling of relationships - CONTROL is the key.
Just like flying a kite, you should learn to control the tauting and releasing of "strings" in a relationship.
If the string is too loose,
the kite might not fly well enough.
but if the string is overly taut,
just as I am feeling, right now,
the string might break,
and the kite might never return, once it has flown away...

okay. this is super emo.
I'm feeling muchmuch better now.
seriously, one should always reflect on him/herself, and make changes asap,
instead of being stuck in a stubborn mindset,
forever thinking that he/she is always RIGHT,
and then end up in regrets.
oh wells. like what my boyfriend always reminds me : " Patience, lim jia xin."
I do have that, you know.
hahs.
and I still have that bit of restraint in myself, you know.
I'll just wait patiently for the day freedom comes looking for me :))
TADA! end of those negativity!
SHOO NEGATIVITY!!
stay away from me!! *RAWRRRRR!!*

YAY!! ^^ school tml.
I'm totally happy about it :D
(I'm perhaps, the only soul around, who is THIS happy about school!
it's not just the freedom; but I enjoy studying rather than doing nothing at all.)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!:))

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!:))

my New Year isn't as exciting as most of you all.
or rather, on this NewYear, I wasn't in my best of moods.
but ah wells, I made it through with some chocolates.
Thank God for the existence of Chocolates! :))

Since the NewYear is here, I'm going to list down FIVE most important resolutions.
(if too many, I also won't be able to stick to them. Hehs)

LIMJIAXIN's NEWYEAR RESOLUTIONS!
1. To walk more closely with Him in everything I do.
2. To REALLY get on with a fixed and regular exercise regime.
3. To DEFINITELY study HARDER!
4. To spend more time with my family and friends no matter what.
5. To be a muchmuch BETTER and MORE understanding girlfriend to JEREMY LIMCHUANGHAI!

Last Day of YEAR 2008!

it's only about two plus more hours till Year 2009.
How did you spend your last day of Year 2008?
For me, I started it off with chatting w my boyfriend over the phone.
and we were reflecting on Year 2008..
Then we spent the whole day tgr.
Did NewYear shopping for his household.
then we went for Korean food as our NewYearEve dinner.
YumYum. I'm really growing fat!! :((
BOYFRIEND!!thanks for making the last day of Year 2008 so happy for me! :))
I LOVE YOU!! ^^

Reflecting on Year 2008 ...

What was your happiest moment in Year 2008?
For me, it was the day when we got to sing "What a Wonderful World" together with him playing the keyboard and the finale on the same day where he did a perfect solo!
:))

What was your saddest moment in Year 2008?
(ah! I know this is a SAD question but I just felt like asking mah!)
We both agreed that it was definitely the big quarrel that we had.
haha. but I'm totally thankful that we made it through THAT. :))

Ah. I am not going to list all the questions out lah.
Just these two; Cause I liked these two alot.
In Year 2008, I feel that, in a way that I've been forced to grow up far too fast for my own liking.
My mum's diagnosis and the whole process of it, opened up my eyes to life itself.
It was tough; the love and support that I get from my friends, my boyfriend and his family really helped me through.
and I must say, that was really something that strengthens my faith in Him as I also get through it with His help.
In Year 2008, great memories have been created for me.
and in Year 2008, my relationship with Jer was really put to the tests; and I thank God that we made it through.
I guess I am really going to miss Year 2008;
but even more, I look forward to a great and better year in Year 2009 :))

GOODBYE 2008! We'll miss you! :))

HELLO 2009!! MAKE ALL OF US HAPPIER!! :DD

and before I go off, HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! ^^

happy 3 years PHOTO

Boyfriend was saying that I didn't upload the photos we took on our 3rd anniversary.
and so, I'm going to put up one of my favourites :))

I LOVE YOU JEREMY LIM CHUAN GHAI! ^^

:))

Finally back.
Don't know what/how to feel about being back at home.
Quite mixed feelings, I supposed?

okayy, I'm just going to update the more important happenings for the past week.

1. ME AND JER ARE FINALLY THREE!!
three years seems quite long but don't exactly feel that way.
thankyou for standing by me for so long.
and thankyou for staying strong in faith in us through all the trials and real difficult times.
THANKYOU BOYFRIEND! :))
(let's forget all the unhappy things and move on with our happy memories to a brand new year!)

2. PRF Gathering - I missed you girls so much that I can brave the stupid jams to meet up!
oh wells. I'm so glad that we still get to meet despite our different schedules!
I really enjoyed myself even though our time spent tgr was really short.
(LIYI! I hope you're feeling better!!)
NXT YEAR XMAS GATHERING! - partners compulsory! and everyone will be warned to stay in good health !! :))
Will think of something for the males to wear whilst we wear our reindeer hairbands :D
*evil grin*

3. A whole week spent with Boyfriend was fabulous.
I really enjoyed myself :))
Was damn reluctant to come home can!
:((
thanks for tolerating me for a whole week.
and STOP SPOILING ME w yummielicious food!
I'm growing SUPER FAT already:((
RAWRRRRRRR!!

4. Christmas wasn't as happening as last year.
but i enjoyed myself and the transquility and peace of it.
thanks for your company BOYFRIEND!! :D

those are pretty much all the more important things.
oh ya. thanks to those who sent me their well wishes :))
HAVE A HAPPY AND BLESSED NEW YEAR EVERYONE!! :))

CandleLight Service :))

okayy. I'm here to blog before I disappear for a long long time again.

Today, went for candlelight service at CHC with boyfriend and Flor.
It's an amazing feeling for me!
Three years ago, I stood at the very same service(though @ a different location) with the very same people, as a non-believer.
Three years later, I stand at the very same service with the same people, as a transformed person because I believe :)
ah wells. Can't exactly describe my feelings very well.
but! I am very happy that I get to attend such a special service with two of my most favourite and important people in my life :))
THANK YOU BOYFRIEND!
THANK YOU FLORENCE SIEWYUMIN! ^^
I thank God for putting the both of you into my life :)
and I thank Him for the joys and supports that the both of you never fail to give :))
THANK YOU!!!!! *hugs*

:))

THIS IS my FAVOURITE!! ^^

pwettypwetty ChristmasTree :)) *happy!*

we love our new shades! :D

this is MY FAV photo of the lot ^^
('Cause I think my Jer looks so CUTE!:D)

Paiseh that I haven't been blogging.
Was away on a GREAT trip with my BOYFRIEND and his family.
:))
Time always flies when I'm with Jer lorhs.
but nevertheless, great and happy memories were created :))
I SO LOVE BEING WITH YOU JER! ^^

NINE MORE DAYS! *wheeeeeeeeee*

:))

I guess my recovery can be considered very speedy for someone with a BIG ego like me.
:))
YAY!

I had a great time yesterday.
Went to watch TRANSPORTER 3 and BOLT with JERJER!!
Transporter3 is GREAT! even though I didnt watch the first two.
it's a brilliant show and it's a MUSTWATCH :)
BOLT was FABULOUS!
I think if anyone misses it, they definitely have something to lose!
it's OH SO CUTE! and totally nice!
It's a MUST-WATCH!!
I SO LOVE RHINO the Hammie! :D

and! I dragged my Boyfriend to the BookFair.
I think I'm the only person around who is more excited about bookfairs than shopping sales.
rawrrrrrr. but i don't care!
BLEAHS :P

first time in my entire life i feel like a complete failure.

Yesterday(plus Today) has/have been the first time in my entire life,
that I feel like a complete failure.
Now, confirmed have to repeat two modules.
horrible shit.
Stil got Commercial Law to confirm.
*prays hard* will update about it later.

but ah wells.
I'm quite fine.
(Just don't know how bad my Dad is going to react to all these)
but I'm okayy lahs.
It's a perfectly natural thing to feel sad that I'm confirmed to be delaying behind by two modules right?
(PLUS! I want to get married at a young age de! Now I'm delayed! RAWRRRRRR! hehs.)

but I feel fine now.
thanks to alot of people.

A big THANK YOU to my BOYFRIEND.
I'm still kind of apologetic towards him.
'Cause instead of me comforting him,
I had to be comforted when I broke down completely.
(SEE LA! I told you I don't want to check earlier ler lo!)
but thanks for being there for me.
really. THANKYOU JER! :))

A big THANK YOU to FLOR.
I think I kind of got you worried when I did my crying over the phone.
LOLS.
not the first time right?
:P
thanks for trying to cheer me up :))
*hugs*

A big THANK YOU to the girls + Anu!
I felt happy being able to meet them.
As in genuinely happy and enjoying myself yesterday despite the bad news.
YAY! we're meeting up again.

A big THANKYOU to KHAIBOON aka FEIFEI.
He helped me re-focus my thoughts totally.
He reminded me that I have alot of other things to be happy about.
and indeed.
I should be happier about my mummy getting better.
and I should be happy that I have lots of true friends who really cares.
and I should be even happier that my relationship with Jer is reaching THREE years already.
:))

A big THANKYOU to two of my UNI FRENS, MARK n SAMUEL KOH.
thanks Mark for offering to do breakfast w me so as to cheer me up and snap me out of my totally down state.
and thanks to samuel koh for calling up immediately to comfort me the moment he knew I didnt do well.

let me see ah.
I have two BIG reasons (hopefully not 3) to be sad about.
But I have so many MANY reasons to be happy about.
limjiaxin, you shouldn't stay sad.
Cheer up.

boring tuesday.

it's boring tuesday for me today.
No one is at home.
Was supposed to go over to help out with Boyfriend.
but Gotta stay home.
I MISS MY BOYFRIEND! :(

Oh wells, I think I kind of miss my sister already.
Lucky her, the weather in Singapore is so sucky.
I wana go to a COLD country for holidays too!
RAWR!
Hope she has fun.
BOYFRIEND!! OUR TURN NEXT YEAR!!!:D

:))

I had a GREAT and HAPPY date w my dearest Jer yesterday.
haha. BOYFRIEND!! $120 OH! :P
*inside joke*

anyways, boyfriend got me addicted to HongKong Drama Serials.
Am now hooked on Forensic Heroes II.
:DD

happy 35th monthsary :))

Happy 35th Monthsary, my love:))
I love you, Jer ^^

emotional me

I have had GREAT fun yesterday.
With BOYFRIEND, Flor and Anu.
:))
Details maybe on Flor's blog when she feels like updating bahs.
:D

but today feels like a BLUE saturday.
some things come and go within a blink of eye.
some things, you just lose them forever... ...

I need a holiday.
Just me and the nature.

:))

wellwells. FIRST! CONGRATS to FLOR for surviving the dreadful exams MONSTERS! ^^

okayy. Here's my update :)

Monday: East Coast with my darling YVONNE PEH AH BON.
talked about so much things; definitely everything under the sun.
Even though it was drizzling, but it didn't dampen our mood for one bit lorhs :D
we're happy people!! ^^
Ate cup noodles (cause I really missed eating cuppy noodles!), Drank my fav RIBENA, ate lots of titbits, ate icecream.. and dinner was, urms.. not so nice duck noodles in Toapayoh.
oh wells. it was a great fun-filled day!!

Tuesday: Spent w the boyfriend.
was unhappy about something.
thus was very moody.
sorry boyfriend; but I hope you understand.

Wednesday: Meetup with my darling FLORENCE SIEWYUMIN!!
went Macs to slack and plan for stuffs.
then went window shopping!
So fun can!
and i think i freaked Flor out with my crazy ideas for Christmas.
LOL.
anyways, I had GREAT FUN!
nxt time I wana eat the MEGA MAC SPICY!
HOHOHO! ^^

Christmas is coming...
Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow......

fantastic DAY

it's been a fantastic day :)
as in today!!
haha. Boyfriend was oh so sweet to wanna spend time with me;
JUST THE TWO OF US.
cause I reallyreally missed that mahs.
Yups. I am really really happy cause he made the effort to.
*HUGS*
but BOYFRIEND!! we forgot to have DESSERT!! :((

I AM SO SO SO HAPPY^^

holidays:))

hmmmm. oh wells. I'll be having a product training at AMK later on.
Don't know what to expect.
besides, I'm technologically challenged to a great extent.
so I'm hoping that I won't be too blur lo.

Been so long since I last watched a movie w Jer.
I wanna watch Madagascar2 and Quantum of Solace!!!!!!!!!!
hahaha. I want! I WANT!! ^^

exams ended.

ahh. finally exams ended.
but actually I wasn't feeling happy de.
cause my MAB paper felt like a disaster.
okayy, it felt worse than a disaster.
I was so stressed that I cldnt sleep well and I wasn' 100 percent sure about what I was doing.
okok. I know I shouldn't be worrying at all.
I am trying not to TOO.
rawr.

went to eat Pizza with Von and Liyi.
Had a great chat and the pizza was good.
and the chicken wings are fabulous!!
haha. then Clement came.
then kept crapping and all.
and so, I cheered up quite abit.

I feel really worn out.
I guess I need a good rest.
I guess I need a good break from everything.
from worrying about my papers and from worrying about people I care for.
Limjiaxin, stop worrying.
and to think my favourite quote is, "WORRY IS INTEREST PAID BEFORE TROUBLE COMES".
oh wells, I do need to be reminded from time to time :)

today is a mugging day.

today is a mugging day.
Last paper to go.
rawwwwwwwr!! MAB.
I am going to practise and practise and PRACTISE.
I MUS PASSSSSSSSS.
rawwwwwr!!
hahaha.

yesterday did only abit of studying and realised that I really DONT KNOW alot of stuffs.
those real basic stuffs.
hah. I had a great time yesterday :))
and now, it's time to work hard. :))

ONE MORE DOWN, ONE MORE TO GO.

one more down, one more to go!
haha. Econs today was like o.o
SO many freaking diagrams to draw.
not that I think its difficult,
but cause I can't draw fast.
and it totally slowed me down LORHS.
stupid paper!
haha. one more freaking paper. and I'm off to HOLIDAYS ^^
wheeeeeeeeeee~

anyways. I'm freaking in the CHRISTMAS MOOD.
ask anyone who went shopping w me these days.
YAY! christmas is so coming.
there're pwetty pwetty christmas treessss at CWP!
Lots of Christmas music playing.
and Christmas items are EVERYWHERE.
Can you feel it?
ahhhhh. my next stop will be my haven of shopping.
IKEA!!
I've so much things i wanna buy LEH!!
HOHOHO!
WHEEEEEEEEEE...
I can't wait!! :))

for once, I really feel happy from the bottom of my heart.
for once, I didn't have to force myself to smile.
it came so naturally.
maybe, really.. all I want is mere simplicity in my life.
maybe, all I'm finding and needing, is simple joys :))

second post on a new day of a new month :)

it's ten pm already.
been slacking for the whole day.
didn't revise one bit.
ok. i should feel ashamed of myself.
opps.

Spent my day mopping around the room.
I feel like SINGLE today.
for my boyfriend is away busy enjoying with his beloved friends, whilst I'm having my freaking exams.
oh wells. Read "PS, I LOVE YOU".
it's totally touching.
Caused me to be completely teary-eyed till the very end.
I must be really EMOTIONAL today.
sighh. I really am touched by what the husband did for his wife.
*sniff sniff* they're such a great couple.

aha. so, my plan tml is, to revise economics.
don't ask me why i keep delaying it.
i don't have that much of an interest in economics.
but i will try to psycho myself into loving it just for these few days until i finish off the dumbdumb papers.
meetups w my favourite people after our freaking exams.
wheeeeeeeeeee~

a new MONTH! :)

yay! it's NOVEMBER 1st lers! :))
Christmas is coming soon!
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!

two killer papers down.
two more to go!
jiayou, limjiaxin! :))
Ysd, went to watch COFFIN w my JERJER.
Horrible shitty movie ok.
Seriously, me and my friends all thought it would turn out to be nice.
But, WAH LAO!
not even passable! NOT EVEN close.
It's a CANNOT-WATCH movie.
argh. Shld have watched MAX PAYNE instead.
*Pouts*

hmmm. Just got my turn at a new book.
WHEE!!
I'm gg to spend my time reading..
THEN I'll revise.
WAHAHAHA.

Because I love you.

Because I love you.
Remember that familiar line from the AllsWell Drink advertisement?
Some deemed it as really sweet.
Some sees it as horribly mushy.
but don't we at one point in time, say "I love you" to people we truly love?
Oh wells. It depends on how you view it, I suppose.

Often, we hear people say, "Oh my! Love's is really blind!"
Or, "You're definitely blinded by love!"

True enough, sometimes, people in love don't see situations as clearly as before, in some sense.
but, instead of saying that they are blinded by love,
why not think it as, they're actually choosing to only see what matters?
and to them, it's the someone they love who matters :)

Because you love someone, you sometimes do silly things.
Because you love, you become somewhat flexible with some of your strictest principles.
Because you love someone, you sometimes don't mind how the world looks at you.
Because you love, you sometimes go to the extremes to make your someone happy.
Because you love someone, you wouldn't mind making the sacrifices.
Because you love, you would kick your bad habits and vices.
Because you love someone, that's all it takes.

Okayy. I've got to continue my revision. BYE!
a note to myself: stop being judgmental, limjiaxin! and remember what you learnt today! :)

long time no blog

reallyreally long time no blog.
Got lots of bad wakeup calls.
JIALAT LA!
hahahaha. oh wells. Good thing also.
Will force myself to buck up.
IF NOT I AM SO SCREWED!! :((

nothing much to be said.

无言以对。 简单的四个字，清楚地表达了我的感触。

RAWRR!!

RAWRR!!
today, I just made myself a victim of CUTE things.
they're so cute that I can't help myself.
oh dear..
RAWRR!!

happy for once.

I am happy for once,
after such a long long time :))

I am tired
Full stop.

Hari Raya.

it's a Wednesday.
and it's so amazing that I'm actually at home.
oh wells. I'm trying to be a good girl today :))

Watched Mamma Mia with JER finally.
whee.. it's great! ^^
and I'm so glad that I watched it w my boyfriend :))

and since, I don't have anything to blog about today; I shall continue w my FYIs List :)

19. I don't like last-min arrangements but at the same time, I may be flexible depending on my mood :D

20. Even though I lack the talent in Arts, I love to attend musicals, dance performance, singing coms, etcetc. :)

21. I've yet come to know my talents. So, at the moment, I'm talent-less :/

22. I don't prefer leafy vegetables; but I still DO eat them :)

23. I normally try not to take too much food that is high in carbo.

24. I prefer homecooked meals than eating out :)

25. I always wish I've more freedom :)

BORED. I feel sleepy at the current time of 3.58pm.
:(

MORE FYI

and so, I'm bored again.
I have had a great day today!
Made new specs! :D
HOHOHO!
It's a busy week!
FLOR's bday on Thursday.
Steamboat w the Bestfriend on friday.
busybusybusy!! :))

and now, here's MORE FYIs about yours Truly.

11. I keep a diary. and I used to write every single detail that happened in my life; you'll be amazed at how detailed I can get. But now, abit slack in writing lers :/

12. I dislike monologue-ing. it's like so not fun!

13. I can't touch alcohol at all. HEHS.

14. I don't do shopping until I need something really badly.

15. I make my boyfriend do the most ridiculous things sometimes :P

16. Sometimes, when I'm thinking, I would accidentally say aloud my thoughts and won't realise it until someone tells me. It's totally embarrassing!! :/

17. I've a special "talent". I can differentiate cigarette brands from the smell. haha.

18. I can't get to sleep at night until I talk to my boyfriend over the phone! :(

ok. I need to sleep lers.
BYE!

A list of random FYI

I'm feeling really random.
And so, here's a list of random FYIs about yours truly.

1. I sometimes sing aloud on the streets; and most of the time get so engrossed that I don't notice that people are listening :P

2. I don't like buying gifts; I prefer to DIY my own gifts :)

3. I love sleeping ALOT. If I'm not doing anything, I would choose to sleep.

4. I eat ALOT. (I think everyone knows that. Hehs)

5. I've a boyfriend whom I reallyreally love :))

6. I can cook! ok. simple dishes, that is.

7. I would love to have ALOT of children in the future! ^^

8. I would love to get married early :)) and plan my own ideal wedding :))

9. Flowers are not on my must-have list. but once in awhile can be rather sweet, of course!

10. I love receiving notes/cards written with love anytime!

okay. that's quite abit lers.
Next time I'll come up with more! ^^

Fully Recovered

I'm almost recovered! ^^
Thank God! :)
and thanks to my boyfriend's support, his mummy's, his daddy's and his godsister's prayers.

but the sad thing is, I LOST MY APPETITE! :(
*frowns*
wah lao. Hurry up come back lahs.
:((

horribly sick

I suspect that my immune system ran away on a vacation w/o me :(

random ramblings

Just wana do some random ramblings...

1. My throat feels awful. And I feel drowsy.
I think I need a GOOD GOOD rest to recover.

2. There is PROJECT MEETING TML.
and it's gg to be freaking LONG.
I think I might just end up falling asleep.
But I really do hope TML we will FINALLY wrap up and NOT add anything more lers.
somehow, I wish it would all end soon.

3. I think we should all pray for Malaysia.
as in, regarding the political unstability.
I don't really know much about the situation.
But still, we must pray that God will intervene and prevent any bad things from happening to anyone.

4. today i got my pay for the two weeks of hardwork.
I guess, I really don't feel much for money man.
Guess I'm really weird.
I'm not a greedy person!

5. I miss my boyfriend alot:(
I just pray that the situation in Malaysia will be fine so that I can go dating with my Boyfriend!! ^^

6. today, I suddenly have a craving for STEAMBOAT and SINGSONG :'(

alrights. I'm really exhausted lers.
Goodnights.

and I thank God for this wonderful day :)

abitbit emoooo

this is a backdated post; was gg to post it yesterday.

我的領悟：
有些内心話不用說出；有些情感無需行動的表達。

Been sometime since I blogged.
Been wanting to blog.
But I can't seem to find time.
Family issues really got me real burnt out.
But I'm back on track after a day of rest.
Things can't really get me down for too long.
I thank God for my speedy recovery all the time :)

Project is due nxt friday.
meaning almost no time to meet up with the boyfriend.
This, I apologise :)
Sorry Boyfriend!
But hopefully after next friday, everything will be back to normal.

Tomorrow will be spent at the hospital again.
Kinda dreading it.
One thing is that I hate long waiting hours.
The other, I dislike being there in the first place :'(
IT WILL BE THE LAST VISIT, I pray.

Just feel like using Chinese to continue my post.
Just some random stuffs.
No need to read on, if you don't feel like it.

有時候，生活忙碌得讓人喘不過氣，讓人感到身心疲憊。
有時候，人一旦適應了忙碌的頻率，往往就會忘了怎麽緩慢地呼吸。
請要懂得，要記得， 休息是爲了走更長遠的路。

happy happy girl :))

I am a happy happy girl today.
and I thank God for that ^^

hmmm.. Saturday was "pamper-myself day"
hahaha. Bought two new dresses, and three lovely books.
WHEE!!!!! ^^
and today was GREAT!
I don't feel typing the details; cause it will be very long and hard to understand.
but! I just know I am really happy today ^^

:)

it's been a great friday :)
Too bad, I can't go for Boyfriend's church overnight prayer meeting.
I've Law Class tml!! and! and econs test :'(
hahaha. Am studying now.
Tml will be a long and busy day.
jiayou limjiaxin^^

and so I learn..

and so, I learnt,

accident-prone

been pretty accident-prone recently.
Banged my big toe yesterday and it's slightly swollen today.
and today, I banged the bony front part of my leg,
and initially I tot it was just a serious depression.
but then I smelt blood and saw some blood coming out of a small wound.
gosh! what's happening to me!
argh.. shoooooooo accidents... SHOOOO!!

:)

it's the weekends again.
:))
I'm really happy.
but then again, mid-terms are next week.
sheesh. Must study hard!! :))

Buffet with the group was great!
Ate alot!! and quote of the day was: " I got mean to you meh?"

Borrowed a new book titled " You, Me and Him"
seems nice.
am not quite in the proper blogging mood.
SO i'm gg off.

reflections.

Feels kind of long since I last blogged.
Life's been... urms.. rather mundane, I guess.
Just wanna talk about really random stuffs today:

1. this year has been a year full of alot of trials and really difficult times, not only for me.
but for people close to me as well.
things don't happen without a reason.
and people don't angry over nothing.
From all these difficult times, I've learnt to be even more sensitive to the people around and to be rational in the most irrational situation.
God, I pray for the people going through difficult times that You guide them along and show them the right path to take.

2. okay. I've a complaint to make.
haha. I saw alot of GOLD-diggers around.
eeeeeeeeeeeww.. they can do it so openly and persistently for VERY LONG lo.
urgh. and some of them are even babes.
urgh. totally grossed out:(

3. I felt a great sense of achievement yesterday.
my littleboyboy did very well for his science exam.
and he was oh so cute when he displayed his shyness just as his mummy was telling me how shocked his teacher was at his tremendous improvement.
awww...
and the thing is, he's still think he could do better :))
oh man.. I'm so in love with kids :D

4. buffet tml! whee.. so exciting!
it's gg to be GREAT BONDING!! ^^

sometimes.. :)

当你照镜子时，你看到了什么？
有时候，会看到连自己都认不出的倒影。
有时候，会看到一个眼神带着悲伤的陌生人。
有时候，会看到一个不敢面对现实的懦弱者。
很庆幸的是，我已很久没遇见那个陌生人与懦弱者。

人生的曲折虽多，
但我坚信只要紧紧地把握着信念与希望，
哪怕希望多么的渺小，你还是会成为最终的胜利者。

boring sleepy friday

today's marketing test.
I am so SO SO sleepy today;
'cause I cldn't get to sleep at all last night :(
urms.. it wasn't that I was spending the time studying.
Just cldn't get to sleep properly.
it's a SAD thing :'(

and, I miss you :'(

boring wednesday.

today has been a boring wednesday.
but thank God. it's ending lers.
Had Law test today; which I think is rather passable :))
it's a good thing for me, since I didn't study much.

I had a fabulous weekend at Jer's Church.
Learnt alot and gained alot :))
Am really happy that Jer invited me :))
Watched a couple of movies w the boyfriend which I enjoyed very much.
and beef noodles was great! *loves*
I love you boyfriend ^^

but this week not meeting the Boyfriend,
for he'll be busy socialising w babes in KL.
not fair. and I still have a marketing test and class to go to.
and tomorrow I'll be stuck at the stupid hospital for God-knows-how-LONG.

suddenly I feel like singing... ...

Suki Sushi Buffet

this happens when my boyfriend gets too bored.
and again.
superduper JUMBO unagi sushi *beams*
me and the birthday gurl :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST YVONNE :)

letting the photos speak for themselves

Me and Boyfriend's First Concert together ^^

me and Flor :))

GREAT WEEKEND!! ^^

it's been a great weekend^^
FIR concert w Boyfriend, Flor and her other half was FUN!!
I really enjoyed myself :))
and pubbing at Walawala was fabulous too.
I really liked the band which was performing that day.
:))

National day didnt go anywhere.
Just stayed home w my family and JERJER to watch the NDP.
It was mild but I am really contented :)
I really enjoyed my time w my boyfriend.

Woke up very early today to cook brekkie for the family and esp for JER.
that's why I am darn tired now.
tuition was really draining today.
but I'm still a happy gurl 'cause I got to spend time w my most beloved :))
whee...

yay! sushi buffet w JER n the best friend, yvonne :))
wheeeeeee. so happy!!

rainydays are my favourite

I'm happy right now.
'Cause it's raining.
and I love rainy days as much as I love my boyfriend.
but that isn't exactly accurate to say.
I still love my boyfriend more than I love rainy days.
:))

Had several hours of productive group meeting.
Quite on track, I suppose.
Had econs test today.
not too bad, I think.
just praying that I'll do well :))

today's a fun day.
Had lots of fun crapping w my group members @ Pines and during our meeting.
we really lack sleep; that explains why we are SO HIGH throughout the day can!
I so love my grp members.
Can't wait for our celebrat-ory outing!

Went to Popular to buy a new notebook.
Decided to do something meaningful over the weekend w the BOYFRIEND.
yay! I can't wait to meet up w the BOYFRIEND and FLOR tml!
it's gg to be FUNFUNFUN! :)

law test nxt nxt week. oh man.
must revise over the weekend lers.
limjiaxin stop slacking laH! :'(

updating :))

SO LONG since I last updated.
ok. it seems really long to me LAH!
ok random updates below.

1. I've a marketing project at hand; alot to be done.. later I've to go to ShengSiong to do up some statistics about their goods.

2. I've an economic test tml! haha. and I haven't revise :S

3. I miss my boyfriend SO MUCH! haha. FOP with Jerjer was great. Weekends with him is the best!! I'm looking forward to FRIDAY!

4. Friday = FIR-DAY! :)) *winks*

5. saturday is national day! and yay! I get to spend the WHOLE day w my boyfriend!! :))

6. Had a great chat with AHBON yesterday. Missed her so much lah! Am gg to meet her next wednesday! woohoo! :))

7. Heard from someone about someone; here's my comment :
tsk. seriously lah. EVERYONE HAS A LIFE to lead too. YOU'RE BUSY; THEN OTHER PPL NOT BUSY MEH! COME ON LAH! GROW UP AND START USING YOUR BRAINS OK. DON'T BE A SPOILT PRINCESS WAITING FOR EVERYONE TO SERVE AND WAIT ON YOU. YES. YOU'RE ALLOWED TO HAVE A SOCIAL LIFE ASIDE FROM STUDYING. BUT THE THING IS, YOU NEED TO PRIORITIZE. OTHER PEOPLE ALSO HAVE JUST AS MUCH COMMITMENTS AS YOU DO. PLEASE LAH. START SPARING SOME THOUGHT FOR OTHERS.

8. I amazingly lost my LAW file. haha. SO SMART and I still haven't figure it out. hehs. Oh wells. I must learn to be more careful with my things ler lo.

9. Esther is coming back next weekend I think. but I won't be around. ESTHER TOH. you're to leave a day for me when I come back. I MISS YOU too! :'(

10. I'm quite done crapping here. Am gg out soon. hah. and suddenly I miss my boyfriend so much :(

randomness wednesday

Just some random thoughts at this random moment.

1. I've just completed my survey questions for mktg project, lost it somewhere in my laptop, and then retrieved it again. Phew!
2. I'm feeling sleepy right now; but I wana finish this post before going to zZzland.
3. I'm officially going on a diet tml! but high chances of me, not sticking to it. WAHAHAHA.
4. I'm on a small saving plan from next month onwards. Must be disciplined! :)
5. I seriously don't see the appeal of smoking and spewing vulgarities AT ALL. *makes gacking sounds*
6. I wana go singsong again soon.
7. I didn't really have a great day. but sometimes, I just make do with what I get :)
8. I realised that I really dislike people telling me "I don't know".
9. I'm no superwoman, but I try to live my life to the fullest. now all I want is to slowly fulfill all the little dreams I have for myself :)
10. I think it's time for me to go bed.. TML will be a busy day. GOSH! shld have taken my zenstone from my boyfriend.
Tml's gg to be so unbearable without my favourite music in my ears :'(

time flew past :(

time flew.
I thought I had SO much time to finish up my work.
but ended up, in moments' time, I've gotta rush out for my project meeting at 5pm.
GOSH!

finally had a good rest today.
a busy week ahead of me.
I hope I've the energy to breeze through the week.
and yay! FOP with boyfriend! :))
so happy!! :))

gotta go lers.
Project meeting soon.

GREAT WEEKEND! :))

this week has been busybusybusy.
but I can't rmb much of the details.
haha. the irony of it.
ah wells. all I can rmb is, that it's has been a great weekend! :)
An Awesome Weekend.
With boyfriend staying over for the whole weekend.
With a GOOD commercial law lecturer.
With Gene's Housewarming which is like a great reunion w good friends :))
This weekend has been the best since dunno how long ago :))
I'm really happy. totally.

boyfriend is LOVES

My boyfriend is LOVES! :)
I'm SO HAPPY today!
yesterday too!
but today, I'm extremely happy!
but REALLY tired too!
haha. but it's all worth it :)
*loves*
me can't wait for JER to stay over next weekend!
JER!! thanks for making me so HAPPY today :))

:)) I am so glad.

I'm so glad that you're the one I'm in love with :))
and I'm really happy being with you.
this year had been full of "crisis" for us.
and maybe more are coming.
but we'll get through it all :)
And the thing is, we might not get that much time together when you leave for Aust next year.
So, let's just not think about anything else, and just enjoy each other's company till then :)
I love you :)

YAYNESS!

today's been a tiring day.
I SO DISLIKE HOSPITALS!
haha. AND NEEDLES TOO!
hehs. I'm a coward indeed.
I'm being banished to being an ugly Cinderella again.
Finally finished all the chores and finally a REST.

Boyfriend totally made my day today,
with his good news!
I'm SO HAPPY for my boyfriend cause he's found a part-time job in S'PORE!
it's only temporary.
But I'm really happy about it!! ^^
He's working on weekends and at specific timeslots.
I'm so happy that I've decided that even though both my weekends are rather packed,
I would wake up willingly to have brekkie with him for as long as he works! ^^
I LOVE YOU, JER!! ^^

and so I got to be a normal girl for a few days.

and so I got to be a normal girl for a few days.
nope, I'm not fearing anything.
Just too much been happening in my life,
I just want be an ordinary person leading her life to the fullest :))

Bank Job w Jer was good.
but the censorship board CUT too much lah.
Commercial Law Lesson One started just yesterday.
and today I am home blogging.
Urms.. that doesn't quite fit the image of me being a sturdious student, I know.
But the foreign lecturer bores me out and I need subtitles with her accent so I can concentrate very well :))
Was having fun in class with Denis and Eileen;
think I almost got killed by the lecturer lorh.
haha.

I MISS MY BOYFRIEND freaking alot!! :'(

happy post :)

okay. this is a HAPPY post.
:))

this week has been a realllllly tough week!
A great deal of UPS and DOWNS.
my emotions went on a LONG roller-coaster ride which lasted like for the whole week.
(ok, that doesn't sound really happy. hehs. Be patient!)

I won't be mentioning the details of the DOWNS part.
but one thing I would like to share.
I actually felt happy that the DOWNS part took place;
'Cause it brought my boyfriend and me even more closer.
And brought about greater understanding between the two of us :))

okay. Watched "Wanted" and "Hancock" with Jer.
I think "Wanted" wasn't as nice as expected.
I didn't quite like the ending; it's too tragic for me.
To me, the ending where everyone died by the curving bullet, served not much of a meaningful purpose.
"Hancock", was not too bad.
but personally, I think if it has lesser of the touching scenes,
it would be so much better :))
ahh wells. I enjoyed both movies nevertheless.

Went SINGSONG w Jer and his friend.
it was SO WORTH IT can!
I really had fun!! ^^
it's been SOOOOOOOOOOO long.
I really really enjoy singing awot!!
Singing is a GOOD therapy for anyone and everyone :))

okay. now for today.
I am finally back at church.
and I had a realllly belated birthday celebration which I did not expect at all.
it's really sweet of them to still wana do it for me :))
Today, the sermon message was SO for me.
I really needed it SO MUCH.
I felt totally freed from all the burdens that were secretly and unknowingly hiding within me.
Thank God! :))
I thank God for the lovely cell group people and the cell group leader who reallyreally gave me alot of support :))

I thank God for putting friends who are full of love in my life to help me through the difficult times.
I thank God for filling me with His love that I may never feel empty.
I thank God for making me stronger when all these difficult times can't be easier.
and I thank God for my Boyfriend, who never stopped supporting me and loving me :))
THANK YOU, MY FRIENDS! ^^
and THANK YOU BOYFRIEND!! ^^

not so good post.

ok. this wasn't supposed to be my intended post today.
but someone just spoilt my mood today.
So I have to really get things off, before I get to my nxt post on my wonderful day ;))

1. I dislike being talked to in a hostile tone when you can talk to your precious son in your oh-so-nice tone.
2. I don't like being not respected when I haven't done anything to not deserve it.
3. I can understand that being in your position is tough; but you don't have to act as if I owe you my life; as if you can destroy me anytime.
4. I understand that the current situation is giving you stress; but you aren't the only one.
5. I understand that you're tired aft work and everything; but look, I'm not the one giving you trouble.
6. Like you not liking coming home and seeing quarrels between us siblings (which don't happen at all now), I don't like coming home to be yelled at when I've done NOTHING at all.
7. I understand that you care; but your common-sensical lectures can be saved for your precious son, who needs them more than I ever do.
8. I really understand that you care, but you really need to reflect on the way you express yourself.
9. I understand that your son is very precious to you; but you need to be able to recognise who are the ones who really care.
10. Because I really do understand and care, I forgive you for everything hurtful that you have done and said to me.
I'll forgive you and continue praying for you that you may be changed for the better.

ahhhhh.. I feel so much better :))

econs is loves

I think I may have been poisoned.
suddenly, I feel that I may be liking ECONS afterall.
GOSH!
*slaps forehead!*
what's happening to ME?!